First I must say thank you to all the wonderful advice, comments and encouragement on my last post. You all were very helpful to me.
With that noted, I have to keep this one short! I think I may be going into Labor as I'm typing this. I'm feeling some contractions (I think) at least every 10 minutes. I'm so excited! (and scared). It's December 31, New Years Eve-hopefully that makes me a contender for having the First Baby of the New Year! I told Her she should try to come today!
It's funny how God works. I have been MISERABLE this last week-due to the physical discomfort. It's been to the point where I am like -get this Baby out of me! But I had no real indication that she was coming as my last two Dr. Appointments-one as recent as yesterday-confirmed that I wasn't even dilated yet. So all week, I had been worried about my Mom getting here in time, but than according to what the Dr. said-I probably was going to go to my date -Jan. 2nd -or even later. That news was discouraging-only because I'm feeling so ready for Her to be here and so physically uncomfortable-it was wearing on me.
So, I called my Mom after yesterday's Dr. appt. and told her the news. She's past 70 so I didn't want her driving up here in haste. I told her she may as well not rush. But guess what? She came anyway and I can only be Thankful to God, because I started feeling a semblance of something like cramps last night which I now think were contractions.
What has been my theme for this blog? Well the central theme is that We Make Plans and God laughs! I know he's laughing at me right now and at the same time, He has shown me mercy and grace by answering my Prayers.
My Mom tried to calm me down earlier this week when I started crying hysterically about possibly being alone when I go into Labor, and then she said I was a "strong woman"! God if I had a nickel, a penny, freak it -a Dollar for every time I have heard that -I would be FILTHY RICH right now. It's true, I'm strong, smart, resourceful and independent, but that doesn't mean I don't need people. I need a shoulder to cry on sometimes, I need and long for a partner to walk this path with me, I need to know I'm loved and I have support from those in my circle. I need to know when I call, someone will answer. Well I know that God answers...he hears my call even if no-one else does. I'm so thankful that Mom is here and I'm so thankful for my gracious friends & Sorors-who I think have been Angels-sent to help through this time.
It is has been difficult-being alone and not having support -with none at all from the Baby's Father and I don't wish this situation on anyone and I really never planned (there goes that word plan) to be in this type of situation, but again, God knew what I could bear -even when I didn't know. Let's be clear, I decided to have this Child even though I knew the relationship wasn't working-He wasn't right AT all and I knew I had to end it. However, this Baby was a gift and I decided to have Faith and trust that although She wasn't my plan -at this time, with this Man-She was a part of God's plan..and I'm so very thankful! I don't regret my decision to be Her Mom.
God Bless my Friends-hopefully, I'm off to the hospital soon and this is the Real McCoy and I'm not just having Braxton Hicks contractions! LOL. Y'all would be really mad at the fake out! :)
Love you and please pray for me and the Baby!